Indeed God Sent

There is one person in my life recently who has touched me in many ways. He made me realized what I refused to see for quite some time now. He made me think what I denied to admit even to myself. He's there to remind me of my long forgotten faith. He's there to help me go back to my old and unselfish self. Every word he utters engraves a mark in my heart and mind. Every advice he gave has huge impact on me and made me think throughout the day and night. Maybe, it's because we walked the same path of uncertainty, that's why he knew what I'm going through. But unlike me, he went back to the lighted way weeks ago. And now, he is guiding me back too. Little by little, I am seeing the right way again. All his effort on me will not be wasted. I am fixing things now for the nth time. Thanks Ahia! You are indeed God sent to me!

HOW TO HAVE AN IDEAL RELATIONSHIP

A relationship is a natural, logical and harmonious association. This happens when people want to be with each other and look forward to sharing goals, time and activities together.


1. TALK. Always in pleasant tones. No shouting or swearing at each other. Speak only positive words with gentleness and kindness. Communicate daily. This is the highest and most caring form of love.

2. WALK TOGETHER MORE. Take 30 minutes a day. To exercise, communicate, release emotions, share ideas, goals, and to clear up any misunderstandings. It's okay to hold hands, too.

3. DO NEW AND DIFFERENT ACTIVITIES TOGETHER. Enjoy a new restaurant, a different dish, a concert, a unique vacation, attend a class together--- something exciting both of you can plan and look forward to. Learn together and you'll be happier

4. GIVE EACH OTHER GIFTS OFTEN. Like a magazine subscription, a special book, a warm bath and massage, flowers, surprise experiences, favorite foods and the many other special things your mate will enjoy and get excited about.

5. WRITE LOVE NOTES. Hide them around the home--- in clothing, pockets, in the kitchen drawer and secret places. Send some to his or her working place. Write a passionate love letter. Express your love in writing on exquisite stationery. Attach a gift certificate or a crispy P 1000 bill. Use your imagination and make it a fun surprise. And do it often.

6. DO NOT CRITICIZE, CONDEMN OR COMPLAIN! This is a NO-No. Only praise. Acknowledge the goodness in each other. There is no place for negativity in loving and lasting relationship ever! Your mate will do the right thing--- as you lead by example.

7. ACHIEVE AND MAINTAIN YOUR IDEAL FIGURE. It is a gift to yourself and your mate. A healthy and attractive body also promotes a healthy relationship.

8. ALLOW YOUR PARTNER TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS OR HER LIFE. He or she has the right to determine his or her own destiny. Always respect that choice. Both of you can live your lives in your own way harmoniously. Treasure each other's differences. Do your best to make life easier and more fun for your mate.

9. GROW TOGETHER. At the same speed and direction---by sharing similar ideas and activities. This will bond you together even more while building on fond memories. (People who don't grow together will complete their relationship and move on to lead separate lives. This is why most people divorce.)

10. DO NOT BE POSSESSIVE. Don't act as though you "own" your mate. Support, encourage each other's way of living and individual interest. Be grateful in harmony.

11. TREASURE YOUR TIME TOGETHER. It could be your last. Look at it this way and you'll always appreciate each other even more. Have no reason for regrets. Spend time with each other doing all the things you both lo0ved to do. Do it now! Tomorrow mat not come so together plan now for the best of the rest of your lives.

12. IT IS OKAY TO DO WHATEVER PLEASES BOTH OF YOU. In private, there are no limits on what you can do together with each other... as long as both benefit and agree. Whatever other people think of what you do or say is none of your business! So, go ahead experiment--- and satisfy each other to the limit!

13. BE OPEN. To the ideas, experiences and relationships. This is the way for fun, growth and expansion in you lives. The more you learn together... the happier you both will be.

14. FORGIVE AND LOVE. Release the past at every moment. Live in the present. Plan for the future ---together and joyously!

15. BE FREE OF RESENTMENT, ANGER, JEALOUSY, HATRED AND ENVY TOWARD EACH OTHER. This will open both of you to even greater respect for each other. Be thankful to your mate's kindness.

16. ELIMINATE ARGUING TOTALLY. Anywhere, anytime. Especially while eating or in bed. Each person has a right to his or her opinion. Respect each other ideas, philosophy and outlook on life. Be a great listener!

17. SMILE AND LAUGH WITH EACH OTHER. A prescription for aliveness and health. Don't take yourself or your mate too seriously. Lighten up and laugh more often. Remember, your smiles are true gift to each other.

18. LOOK INTO EACH OTHER'S EYES OFTEN. See the love, truth and beauty in your mate. The more you look into each other eyes the more you will love each other more deeply! Do this daily. It's very powerful and fun.

19. TOUCH EACH OTHER TENDERLY EVERY DAY. Hug. Kiss. Caress. These are wonderful ways to show caring love. We all need it more than we care to admit!

20. DEVELOP A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE. Good food promotes a healthier state of mind for a more meaningful relationship. Eat lots of fruits, vegetables, whole wheat, grains, hi-fiber, low -fat, low calorie foods. Drink more water. Get more rest. Keep yourself cleansed, nourished and balanced.

21. KEEP YOUR HOME, CAR, KITCHEN, CLOSET AND ROOM --- SIMPLE, NEAT, CLEAN AND ORGANIZED. This will help promote a tranquil setting for greater peace and happiness in you lives. It really works! Begin this---today!

22. DRESS YOUR BEST. Be appropriate, neat, clean and proud of you appearance. How you look especially in public--- enhances your mat's choice and appearance too.

23. SHARE IN FINANCIAL MATTERS. If you are married, communicate with each other on all you finances. If you have a family business be sure both are informed on profits, losses, expenses, etc. set your financial priorities together. This will help to strengthen your relationship which is built on trust and sharing. Enjoy building your financial future together. This is important.

24. ACCEPT EACH OTHER TOTALLY. Exactly the way both of you are. Do not try to change each other's uniqueness. Allow your mate to change if and when he or she desires. This promotes everlasting peace.

25. SAY: "I LOVE YOU". Daily, many times, especially when you wake up and before you go to sleep. Say it for the rest of your lives together. Never ever take love for granted. Express it verbally as well as with action. We all need to hear that magical phrase. It reaffirms how we feel at that moment. So fill you lives with millions of love by saying "I LOVE YOU."

Song Lyrics: Angels Brought Me Here

Sung by: Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Angels

The past weeks had been difficult for me. Luckily, I got 4 friends who helped me in overcoming my tumultuous journey. They were there and they guided me back to the right path... the path that seemed to be so dark that I could not see my way. They lighted up my direction and helped me see things clearly. One friend reminded me of my old self. Another one showed me what unconditional love really means. The other 2 assisted me back to my faith. So, here I am now, back on my feet, ready to face again the challenges of this life. And, I would like to thank my angels, Bem, Mel, Tata & Jay. They helped me get through all of these. They served as God's instruments, and, indeed, they are heaven sent.

Best Friend Forever

I am blessed with a friend who never fails to bring a smile to me even during those tearful days. He is there when I least expects it, as if he knew that I needed someone. He once played a major role in my life. But with some twist of fate, he was the one who inflicted those pains on me. But despite that fact, he can still lighten my mood and makes me laugh my heart out. I know... He will always be a part of me. And he certainly have a special place in my heart... forever!

The Marks of the Past

Ever wonder why we learned things the hard way? I did last night and it left me puzzled the whole night. Why do things have to happen that way? Why can't we learn it by the so-called soft way? Maybe, because the hard way leaves a mark way deeper into our hearts. Or maybe, because when we're down, we have nowhere to go but up and that way, we gather all what remains of us after. The pain we felt taught us not to commit the same things again. It made us stronger and wiser. We just can't forget things that engraved marks on us and made us the person that we are right now. Whether good or bad, we are what we are, because of the things that we have gone through. But it is really up to us on how we respond to them, negatively or positively. It is our choice, so don't blame your experiences if you chose to fill your hearts with hatred and bitterness. Look who's talking...

What are the symptoms of depression?

People with depressive illnesses do not all experience the same symptoms. The severity, frequency and duration of symptoms will vary depending on the individual and his or her particular illness.

Symptoms include:

* Persistent sad, anxious or "empty" feelings
* Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and/or helplessness
* Irritability, restlessness
* Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
* Fatigue and decreased energy
* Difficulty concentrating, remembering details and making decisions
* Insomnia, early–morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
* Overeating, or appetite loss
* Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
* Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment

Unexplained Exhaustion

I've never felt this exhausted in my whole life...not physically, but emotionally. It drained my energy to the highest level and made it hard for me to cope up with things. Most of the time, i tend to deny it, but things came out of proportion before i could even do something about it. And now, I can feel the burden on my shoulders getting heavier each day, and they are pushing me down on my knees. I'm not sure until when can I carry this... It is starting to eat what remains of me.

The Coldness in Second Chances

People tend to ask for second chances, whether in work or in relationships. We give them if we believe that there's something more we can do about it. Second chances may worked sometimes, but we need to put much effort on it. As for me, I don't know. I'm not so positive about this. Actually, I'm quite skeptical about this. I just can't help it, but there will still be a room for doubts in my mind. I wish i could erase them just as easily as I erase writings on a paper. I wish that i could be more optimistic and ecstatic about it. I wish that i could just leave the past behind me. Sadly and confusedly, I cannot and I don't know why. Maybe, they are right. Maybe, I need to do some thinking and lots of soul searching. Maybe, I need the spaces, too... to be able to realize things that can truly make me happy. Happiness seems to elude me lately. I am starting to feel that it doesn't exist anymore in this heart, not even in mind. My heart has been wrapped with so much coldness for quite some time now. And sometimes, i wonder when will this ice melts. Hopefully soon, before bitterness will devour me. Wishfully too, in time, I could forget things and totally give you the second chance that you are asking and start anew.

How FRIENDSHIP works for me

I always value friendship. I had few but i can say that they are for keeps... for a lifetime. Like any other relationships, there are struggles to make it worked. But, I always give my heart on it. Always making sure that no matter what, they can count on me... through thick and thin, as the song goes. And i guess, lucky you if you're one of them. Or rather, poor you, for i won't leave you on your own fight. I am a friend who will move mountains to be with a friend in need. Just call me, and I will be there.

Going away

I felt this kind of sadness lately. In the coming months, i'll be missing my sister. She's going to this unknown journey on her own... a journey that she's longing to have to some unfamiliar place. How I wish that I could accompany her just like when she was still in her schooling days. The 'Achi' in me feared that she might have a hard time adjusting there. I know... that I should let her be. Let her discover things on her own. She's all grown up now. And sometimes, she thinks even more maturely than me. Sigh... maybe, i was just saddened because i will surely missed her. She's not just a sister, she's also my bestfriend, my driver, my shopping buddy. Love you, Dichi. Take care always.

Quotations about LIFE

"We can't have all that we desire, but God will give us all that we deserve."

"Never search your happiness in others, it will just make you feel alone... rather, search it in yourself, it will make you feel happy even if you are left alone."

"Rivers don't drink the water they carry; Trees don't eat the fruit they bear; Clouds don't bathe in the rain they produce. We are meant to give, even if we get nothing from it. Measuring life by what others do may disappoint us, but measuring life by what we do will make life more meaningful."

"There will come a point in your life when you'll get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything... it's not giving up. It's just a realization that you don't need all those you went after, because what you need are those who stood by you even if you never needed them."

"Sometimes, we realize to change for the better just when the situation got worse. We realize to finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have caused irreversible damage. We finally decided to prove ourselves worthy just when the person whom you want to prove your worth has already decided that you're not worth it at all. Most of the lessons are learned when the test is over."

"It's not always right to stay in pain when you know you've already had too much... And it isn't always wrong to be happy, especially when you know it's about time that you deserve to be."

"Be strong! Remember, not everything has a happy ending and most endings doesn't mean stop, it's just a way of telling us that there is a new beginning ahead. We should always be ready for the unpredictable, expect the unexpected... it's easy to fall, but hard to get up... but once we're up and back on track, we will be a better person."

"People change no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older, you mature and with each new level of maturity comes different ideas, different needs and wants. The person who was perfect for you at 20's could be the person you hate at 30's. You have to find someone who will grow with you, change with you, laugh with you, and cry with you."

"If you are trapped between what you feel and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy unless you want everybody to be happy for you, except you being happy for yourself."

"Happiness is not a destiny... it's a CHOICE."

Aerodynamic Friend

Recently, as i walked on this life, I met a stranger somewhere in the virtual world. After some senseless and serious talks about 'jaguar', hummer, rice crisis & etc, a friendship bloomed. A friendship that you won't believe to be possible in this pretentious world of technology. But there it is, i must admit that there is really a connection. We can talk anything under the sun. It's like talking to an old friend...a long lost friend. Weird as it is, it's like we're catching up on old stuffs, but really, the friendship is new and not yet tested. Maybe, somewhere in my past life, i met this friend and we, sort of, had this great bond. Maybe, that explains this strange connection between us. It's like we are thinking the same thoughts. Odd huh? But it's true. I can't find the right words to describe this. This is an enigma. And i will leave it as it is.

POEM: Living Life

Living life like a dry leaf
always chasing for water to fill the emptiness
always waiting for the sun to shine upon me
always searching for the rainbow for a new hope.

Living life like an empty shell
not knowing where to go
not knowing what to do
not knowing how to live.

Living life like a rain
constantly pouring down at night
shivering with coldness in the dark
hoping for the light in this heart.

Life is too short, sin a little

This is the tagline of Pecados commercial. I really don't know what it is. I think, if not a bar, it's an alcoholic drink. That's the implication of the said commercial. Anyway, when I first heard this tagline, it made me smile. It felt like I was told to enjoy a bit, 'coz life is too short. Yeah, i know. That's what I'm trying to do now, enjoying a bit of harmless freedom, in other words, loosening a bit from my old conservative ways. Shockingly, I am enjoying it. I know that this is something I should have done before I got married. But it's never too late yet. I am having the time of my life now, but making sure that this won't take it's toll on my family. I am not the wild type anyway, still got my composure and pride intact, as always. Just a little bit of freedom... a little bit of selfishness too... but, still so much aware of my limitations.

How Lucky I Am

Today, I realize how lucky I am to have these people who TRULY care and love me. I want to thank them in my own little way.

To my parents, sisters and brother, for the undying support and love and for being my strength during those hardest times.
To my relatives, for giving me sound advices, and for backing me up financially.
To my hubby and baby, for the unconditionally love and understanding, and for not giving up on me.
To my 2 bestfriends, for the complete acceptance, for listening to my countless insanities, and for being my shoulders to cry on.
Lastly, to my Savior, for the forgiveness and guidance, for all the blessings, and for giving me all these people who genuinely love me.

Invest in People who truly Love you

Sadly, I realized this the hard way. I was constantly seeking for love outside my world, without realizing that I was hurting the people who truly love me. They are always there, patiently waiting for my sanity to return. They never left me on my own, still guiding me in solving my chaotic self and thoughts.

Now, It hit me like a rock. Thanks God! I am not yet too late. I'm glad that I haven't done something irreversible. I'm back on my feet again, and this time, I'll cherish every moment that I'll have with them. I will love them as they have love me...unconditionally.

For You, My Friend

My friend, I'm really sorry for all the pain i caused you. I don't intend to hurt you this way. But i want to be true to you and to myself. I really just can't see you in the romantic way. I can't force myself to treat you more than a friend. It's not like me. Of all people, you should know that. You know me better than anyone else. I hope you can understand why i need to do this...for you and for everyone we love. I don't want to hurt them, most especially your family. I treated them as my own. Also, I think it will be better if one of us should move and let go of this beautiful friendship. And since you can't do it, i think it's my call. But before I go, I want to thank you for everything. Thank you for being there for me through thick and thin. Thank you also for lending me your shoulders to cry on. I know that my 'thank you' is not enough. With our 12 years of friendship, we had shared many moments together. I want you to know that I will always cherish them and keep them in my heart.

Don't worry, this is all but temporary. Soon, our friendship will be back to normal again. Just need to put some spaces on it for us to be able to breathe. In time, when you have moved on, i'll be at your doorstep again, hugging you as if nothing happened.

Does passion end when commitment begins?

Got this question from the movie trailer 'When love begins' starred by Aga Muhlach and Anne Curtis. It made me ask myself the same question. Does passion really end when commitment begins? After tons of evaluation, yes, i think it's true. I've been married for almost 8 years now. After the honeymoon stage ends, disillusionment begins. This is the time when you discover all the not-so-good things about your partner. This is also the time when responsibilities come in. Issues like money usually start at this stage too. With all of these things happening at the same time, passion could really be affected. Both need to work hard to stay in love. In this time, your friendship with your partner will be put to test. This so-called friendship will hold you both together. That's why we all said that there has to be friendship in every love relationship. It will served as a foundation to a solid relationship with your partner. Sometimes, after years in marriage, love will not be enough. This will then be your weapon on this hard times. Without friendship, love might not survive. The components of this friendship, trust and respect for each other, will strengthen the bond. So don't fret. Passion might be diminished, but a deeper connection through friendship will grow, and that's the most stable relationship in the world.

Mukha kang Sofa

Heard of this new song? I bet u still didn’t. This song created so much laughter from the judges, crowd and the TV viewers. It is composed by one Glenn Ternal, 24 years old and from Lucena City. He is a Pinoy Dream Academy Season 2 aspirant.

Watch this video and be sure to read the lyrics below. It will definitely make your day. Enjoy watching.

10 Habits of a Loving Couple

by Alanna Webb


Romance is a way to express your love, the icing on the cake... but don't wait for special occasions to express your love. Make sure that you nurture your loving relationship by practicing these basic habits in your day-to-day life. These may seem very basic, but how many do you do? Don't despair... it's never too late to adopt good, loving habits.

1. Say 'I Love You' at least once a day. Your partner does need to hear the words.

2. Kiss good-bye and hello. Throw in a hug while you're at it.

3. 'Date' your partner for the rest of your lives. Treat your partner even better than when you were dating... Remember that you are sweethearts ~ * open her door * straighten his tie * hold out her chair * hold hands when you're walking together

4. Don't sweat the small stuff. You can let his/her bad habits bother you to distraction... or you can accept them, and work around them. Does she leave the cap off the toothpaste? Buy separate tubes... Does he leave clothes laying around? Ignore them, or pick them up, remembering just how much he does for you in other ways. Or, make it easier for your partner to satisfy you... buy several clothes hampers and keep them handy. ;-)

5. Concentrate on the positive. Instead of thinking about the ways that s/he lets you down, think of all the positive things about your partner that drew you to them in the first place.

6. Take a breather when you're mad. Don't try to talk when either of you are angry. Take a few minutes to walk around the block, lay down, just get away from each other so you can regroup. A short break will allow you both to stay on track and discuss what's bothering you instead of accidently making personal insults that you will regret later.

7. Don't use your partner's secrets or weaknesses against them... ever! What may seem insignificant, trivial, or cute to you may be serious to your partner. Recognize what is important to your partner, and don't discuss it with your friends, mother, his family, anyone! And certainly don't throw the words back at them in an argument. A loving relationship is one of the most intimate and trusting that anyone can have.

8. Think about your partner first. If both of you do this, then you can't help but win! Say 'yes' to your partner as often as possible... go to that sports event with him, get him out on that golf course because he loves golf, make life easier for your partner, and hopefully they will do the same for you!

9. R-E-S-P-E-C-T your partner. Don't badmouth your partner to anyone! When you talk about your partner, let your respect and love shine through.

10. Find a way to regroup together every day. Discover what works well for you both... eat a meal together, meet for happy hour drinks, skip Leno at night and just lay in bed in the dark, take a walk around the block, etc. You can even mix things up and vary your routine. If one of you is traveling, call home at night just to hear their voice. The point is to spend time together daily, just talking or breathing the same air, feeling connected.

Remember... the more you put into your relationship, the more you gain! Make love and romance a part of your daily life!

Song Lyrics: In Another Lifetime

Sung by: Gary Valenciano
Album: Relevance

I could hold on for a hundred years

When all else is gone

I would still be here

In a memory of things yet unseen

I’d remember all that we’ve never been

And I cannot wait to see

What life has in store for me

[chorus]

In another lifetime

It would be forever

In another world

Where you and I

Could be together

In another set of chances

I’d take the one’s I’d missed

And make you mine

If only for a time

My life would matter

In another life

And I’d stay as strong and I’d stay as true

And you’d have forever now to think it through

Coz I believe what wasn’t meant to be

Wasn’t meant for now and

Someday you’ll see

In a place and time we never know

I’d be standing there waiting for you

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

You would be mine

But until that time is now

I’d be holding on somehow

[Repeat Chorus]

[Coda]

But until that time

I’ll be holding onto forever

Until another life 

My Weird and Subjective Mind

Writing is not really my thing. But lately, it has been my way of expressing myself. I'm not the type who can express easily what i want to say. I need to put it in writing to be able to arrange my thoughts first. You see, I am not as articulate as others. In college, i love Math more than English, and maybe, that explains why. I usually have this dilemma of finding the right words for my emotions. But i do have mood shifts, and sometimes the right words come easily. With this mood, i usually resort to writing. One thing i realized in writing, i am a very subjective person. I love to put into words my reflections and realizations. I am the type of person who thinks a lot. Sometimes, i can't sleep with all those thoughts bombarding my mind at night... thoughts that surfaced from out of nowhere. Though sometimes, they are provoked too. I get to sleep only if i put it in notes.

Just this morning, i got a little accident in the bathroom. I slipped and bumped my head on the bathroom wall. Instead of thinking about the pain, my thoughts lingered into some realizations, again. I realized that i need to make some changes and keep myself busy with something new and useful. Weird as it may sound, but that's what i got in my mind after. It provided me with two choices. One is to take up some studies on business management, and the other is to do some voluntary social works. I know, there is no connection between the two. But these 2 are the things that i wanted to do even before. Maybe, it's a sign that i need to put either of them in action. Maybe, that little accident happened for a purpose. Maybe, it's the pushing that i need all along. I am always afraid of changes, and trying something new is one of them. This maybe the hint to move on and gather my courage. But i need to get myself ready first for it.

Poem: One Great Love

I thought it was just your friendship that I need but as days ran by

I realized that love came back into my heart.

The same love that knocked at my door once,

But now it's more complicated for our hearts were not ours anymore.



Tears filled my eyes... I should have waited for you to come back.

You should have stopped me that day and we wouldn’t be this way.

We should have tried to fight for our love each day,

And we might be happy today and all days.



You didn’t say anything but your eyes tell me everything.

Every stare you gave me still took my breath away.

Every smile you sent me still grabbed me all the way.

I recall the day when we were still together; I hope we could still have that chance someday.



I will wait for that day to come when both of us are free.

Even if time will take your hair away, my love for you won't melt away.

For you are my greatest love, and that I know, will always stay.

Even years can’t take that away from this heart that's always pray.

The Irony of Chasing Happiness

HAPPINESS... we sometimes wonder what does this word really mean. Is it synonym to contentment, like loving the life that you have right now? Or it's just an illusion and beyond our comprehension and reach? There are times when we even question it's existence. Though sometimes, we experience this short-lived so called happiness. But in the end, we wonder if it's really real, and not just a mere satisfaction brought by the situation. We often asked ourselves 'Can we truly be happy?'. We tend to answer 'yes'. But if we are asked how, we really don't know.

I got this text message from a friend... 'It's really hard to show everybody how you feel, scared of letting them know what's bothering you... sometimes lying would be an excellent remedy to overshadow the tears from your eyes. You hide the pain by smiling, you hide the tears by laughing and you hide the sadness by lying. And sometimes, you just want to trade your life just to experience a minute of happiness that will really change everything.'

Maybe, this is the fact in this materialistic world... the more we chase for happiness, the more it eludes us... the more we look for it, the more we lose it. Every time we try to be happy, we fall prey to being hurt instead. But sometimes too, we need to be hurt first to realize things that really matter to us. Life is indeed full of ironies, not only in seeking for happiness. In living this life, we have to lose things, to gain things. Like in love, we need to lose ourselves to be able to love the other person wholly, and that way we can truly be happy.

And, it's true too... that only HIM can give us real happiness... the one that we are constantly looking for... the one that last forever.

What a day

What a day i had yesterday. It left me so disturbed the whole day... and a bit disoriented. I could not work... i could not think straight... i could not believe what i have read. Questions filled my mind. Isn't it too late? 10 years had already passed. Isn't it too complicated to push things through? Don't you think that God made it happened because it wasn't meant to be in the first place? Well... i don't know... and I'm not sure if I should believe you this time. I've learned my lessons in the past... and they hit me so hard that it almost left me in pieces. Can you blame me for thinking this way? You knew nothing about it. Sometimes, looking back is not the best things for us. I have to make a choice. And i choose to be what I am right now... i choose to be where I am right now... with people who truly cares for me... with things I've learned to love for years. I prefer things to be what they are right now. I am happy now... can't you see? Yeah... I know, my life is far from perfect... but they are worth fighting for. I don't want to lose this battle without fighting. And if you pity me for having this life, please don't. I don't need them. There's nothing to be pitied about. You know me... and you should know that I don't leave things hanging. Better yet, you go on with the life you have chosen and I will continue with mine too. And please don't ever looked back again.