Writing is not really my thing. But lately, it has been my way of expressing myself. I'm not the type who can express easily what i want to say. I need to put it in writing to be able to arrange my thoughts first. You see, I am not as articulate as others. In college, i love Math more than English, and maybe, that explains why. I usually have this dilemma of finding the right words for my emotions. But i do have mood shifts, and sometimes the right words come easily. With this mood, i usually resort to writing. One thing i realized in writing, i am a very subjective person. I love to put into words my reflections and realizations. I am the type of person who thinks a lot. Sometimes, i can't sleep with all those thoughts bombarding my mind at night... thoughts that surfaced from out of nowhere. Though sometimes, they are provoked too. I get to sleep only if i put it in notes.
Just this morning, i got a little accident in the bathroom. I slipped and bumped my head on the bathroom wall. Instead of thinking about the pain, my thoughts lingered into some realizations, again. I realized that i need to make some changes and keep myself busy with something new and useful. Weird as it may sound, but that's what i got in my mind after. It provided me with two choices. One is to take up some studies on business management, and the other is to do some voluntary social works. I know, there is no connection between the two. But these 2 are the things that i wanted to do even before. Maybe, it's a sign that i need to put either of them in action. Maybe, that little accident happened for a purpose. Maybe, it's the pushing that i need all along. I am always afraid of changes, and trying something new is one of them. This maybe the hint to move on and gather my courage. But i need to get myself ready first for it.
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