The Coldness in Second Chances

People tend to ask for second chances, whether in work or in relationships. We give them if we believe that there's something more we can do about it. Second chances may worked sometimes, but we need to put much effort on it. As for me, I don't know. I'm not so positive about this. Actually, I'm quite skeptical about this. I just can't help it, but there will still be a room for doubts in my mind. I wish i could erase them just as easily as I erase writings on a paper. I wish that i could be more optimistic and ecstatic about it. I wish that i could just leave the past behind me. Sadly and confusedly, I cannot and I don't know why. Maybe, they are right. Maybe, I need to do some thinking and lots of soul searching. Maybe, I need the spaces, too... to be able to realize things that can truly make me happy. Happiness seems to elude me lately. I am starting to feel that it doesn't exist anymore in this heart, not even in mind. My heart has been wrapped with so much coldness for quite some time now. And sometimes, i wonder when will this ice melts. Hopefully soon, before bitterness will devour me. Wishfully too, in time, I could forget things and totally give you the second chance that you are asking and start anew.