Best Friend Forever

I am blessed with a friend who never fails to bring a smile to me even during those tearful days. He is there when I least expects it, as if he knew that I needed someone. He once played a major role in my life. But with some twist of fate, he was the one who inflicted those pains on me. But despite that fact, he can still lighten my mood and makes me laugh my heart out. I know... He will always be a part of me. And he certainly have a special place in my heart... forever!

The Marks of the Past

Ever wonder why we learned things the hard way? I did last night and it left me puzzled the whole night. Why do things have to happen that way? Why can't we learn it by the so-called soft way? Maybe, because the hard way leaves a mark way deeper into our hearts. Or maybe, because when we're down, we have nowhere to go but up and that way, we gather all what remains of us after. The pain we felt taught us not to commit the same things again. It made us stronger and wiser. We just can't forget things that engraved marks on us and made us the person that we are right now. Whether good or bad, we are what we are, because of the things that we have gone through. But it is really up to us on how we respond to them, negatively or positively. It is our choice, so don't blame your experiences if you chose to fill your hearts with hatred and bitterness. Look who's talking...

What are the symptoms of depression?

People with depressive illnesses do not all experience the same symptoms. The severity, frequency and duration of symptoms will vary depending on the individual and his or her particular illness.

Symptoms include:

* Persistent sad, anxious or "empty" feelings
* Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and/or helplessness
* Irritability, restlessness
* Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
* Fatigue and decreased energy
* Difficulty concentrating, remembering details and making decisions
* Insomnia, early–morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
* Overeating, or appetite loss
* Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
* Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment

Unexplained Exhaustion

I've never felt this exhausted in my whole life...not physically, but emotionally. It drained my energy to the highest level and made it hard for me to cope up with things. Most of the time, i tend to deny it, but things came out of proportion before i could even do something about it. And now, I can feel the burden on my shoulders getting heavier each day, and they are pushing me down on my knees. I'm not sure until when can I carry this... It is starting to eat what remains of me.

The Coldness in Second Chances

People tend to ask for second chances, whether in work or in relationships. We give them if we believe that there's something more we can do about it. Second chances may worked sometimes, but we need to put much effort on it. As for me, I don't know. I'm not so positive about this. Actually, I'm quite skeptical about this. I just can't help it, but there will still be a room for doubts in my mind. I wish i could erase them just as easily as I erase writings on a paper. I wish that i could be more optimistic and ecstatic about it. I wish that i could just leave the past behind me. Sadly and confusedly, I cannot and I don't know why. Maybe, they are right. Maybe, I need to do some thinking and lots of soul searching. Maybe, I need the spaces, too... to be able to realize things that can truly make me happy. Happiness seems to elude me lately. I am starting to feel that it doesn't exist anymore in this heart, not even in mind. My heart has been wrapped with so much coldness for quite some time now. And sometimes, i wonder when will this ice melts. Hopefully soon, before bitterness will devour me. Wishfully too, in time, I could forget things and totally give you the second chance that you are asking and start anew.

How FRIENDSHIP works for me

I always value friendship. I had few but i can say that they are for keeps... for a lifetime. Like any other relationships, there are struggles to make it worked. But, I always give my heart on it. Always making sure that no matter what, they can count on me... through thick and thin, as the song goes. And i guess, lucky you if you're one of them. Or rather, poor you, for i won't leave you on your own fight. I am a friend who will move mountains to be with a friend in need. Just call me, and I will be there.

Going away

I felt this kind of sadness lately. In the coming months, i'll be missing my sister. She's going to this unknown journey on her own... a journey that she's longing to have to some unfamiliar place. How I wish that I could accompany her just like when she was still in her schooling days. The 'Achi' in me feared that she might have a hard time adjusting there. I know... that I should let her be. Let her discover things on her own. She's all grown up now. And sometimes, she thinks even more maturely than me. Sigh... maybe, i was just saddened because i will surely missed her. She's not just a sister, she's also my bestfriend, my driver, my shopping buddy. Love you, Dichi. Take care always.

Quotations about LIFE

"We can't have all that we desire, but God will give us all that we deserve."

"Never search your happiness in others, it will just make you feel alone... rather, search it in yourself, it will make you feel happy even if you are left alone."

"Rivers don't drink the water they carry; Trees don't eat the fruit they bear; Clouds don't bathe in the rain they produce. We are meant to give, even if we get nothing from it. Measuring life by what others do may disappoint us, but measuring life by what we do will make life more meaningful."

"There will come a point in your life when you'll get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything... it's not giving up. It's just a realization that you don't need all those you went after, because what you need are those who stood by you even if you never needed them."

"Sometimes, we realize to change for the better just when the situation got worse. We realize to finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have caused irreversible damage. We finally decided to prove ourselves worthy just when the person whom you want to prove your worth has already decided that you're not worth it at all. Most of the lessons are learned when the test is over."

"It's not always right to stay in pain when you know you've already had too much... And it isn't always wrong to be happy, especially when you know it's about time that you deserve to be."

"Be strong! Remember, not everything has a happy ending and most endings doesn't mean stop, it's just a way of telling us that there is a new beginning ahead. We should always be ready for the unpredictable, expect the unexpected... it's easy to fall, but hard to get up... but once we're up and back on track, we will be a better person."

"People change no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older, you mature and with each new level of maturity comes different ideas, different needs and wants. The person who was perfect for you at 20's could be the person you hate at 30's. You have to find someone who will grow with you, change with you, laugh with you, and cry with you."

"If you are trapped between what you feel and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy unless you want everybody to be happy for you, except you being happy for yourself."

"Happiness is not a destiny... it's a CHOICE."